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I wrote a poem today

I wrote a poem today 2 days this day my most painful no level of dope sick can touch this pain no level of shame cam even compare to these emotions I wrote a poem to day a poem called good bye to a girl I had always known as forever many times we’ve said done. But those were just a means to end to end to take an upper hand in Thier love game but this wasn’t I’ll show you this was hello do u still know I exist this was I love you maybe ur the one if u do what ur told while I have fun Today I wrote a poem that was a huge reminder that I am so sensitive as I got reaquented with my old friend all alone and not so friendly denial who checked every ten minutes at my inbox for my girl forever cuz she would never leave me all alone we had family we had church we had love but no now we just had BUT we just had I love you but and I got left in out her space alone at church only with pictures of my son plans replaced with fun baby daddy portrayed as an selfish issue leaving forever no choice but to move on as strong independent chasing hot guys and running from akward Ones crushing on her mistaking it for love who would trade anything to be on my shoes and experience I love you but in out her space I wrote a poem today a happy one in this one I wasn’t irrelevant I was in her thoughts we as family went to church I felt peace but thats just a poem today reality went a different way I never even crossed forevers mind plans turned to never mind forcing me to make up my mind no I love you but not this time me and alone will take are empty in box are broken heart and walk alone

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Miss her

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Continued… Let me be the man I have the potential to be let my pick up everyone I let down this is my last bit of talking here on out nothing but action I can do this so I will

josepheubanks:

I can’t even be myself I’ve become a lie
Play a part of when I was real grasping on when I was decent I got a long journey ahead of me just to gain back some truth self respect and hopefully forgiveness this is my last expression from now on action change movements be about it and not speak one…

Bye bye beautiful

Continued… Let me be the man I have the potential to be let my pick up everyone I let down this is my last bit of talking here on out nothing but action I can do this so I will

I can’t even be myself I’ve become a lie
Play a part of when I was real grasping on when I was decent I got a long journey ahead of me just to gain back some truth self respect and hopefully forgiveness this is my last expression from now on action change movements be about it and not speak one word about it surprise my self and be what I know I can not what I know I cam get away with sick of being average half stepping just to sustain instead of full steps and excelling no more will my fear of failure result in failure to commit fully to actually go for what it is I want with the full possibility of coming up short for the longest I’ve skated by on a tenth of the effort im capable of playing to fool to seem cool time to kill my inner child a d grow the fuck up only god can judge me and it mean something but everyone cam judge me no longer will I let critics phase me and no longer will I live up to all the doubts people have about me this a letter to my self to wake up to bring back that strong person I once was to live a life my conscious can live with to make amends no matter how long it takes to make them to drop all my hate drop the rocks I throw from my glass house and ask to be forgiven for everyday I’ve lived corrupt and everyone I hurt and evry sin I committed and have yet to commit god thank you for another undeserved yet very viable chance to turn the page yet again let